As you get older the celebration of Christmas changes! Part if the change is the natural progression of life. Somehow, we want to hold on to the Christmas of the past but each year a little more slips away and is replaced with new traditions and new memories. For me, the meaning of Christmas changed on December 14, 2012, This was the day of the Sandy Hook shooting! That Christmas it was not the same.I tried to figure it out but...
...... Something missing !
Every year I decorate the house. I decorate inside, outside and wherever there is a bare spot to hang another decoration. My two sonsTodd and Davin and their wives,Melinda and Amy ,are still in the Kansas City area but we are very lucky to have my daughter Tami, her husband Mark Both of their sons and their new wives here!

I stood in front of Walmart and handed out "comfort shawls" which I had crocheted. The shawls were beautiful! They were made with bright fun colors that made me smile to look at them. There was a nice fringe on the shawls which gave a calming glow. It was nice to be able to do that and see how much it meant to the people who took the shawls.
…...still there was something missing!

One day I made my way to our coffee group and I wore my Santa hat! We handed out cards to the staff and had a fun time both with our friends and the other people in Starbucks. Off to Quick Trip to get refueled. I was really trying to feel the Christmas spirit.
…...still there was something missing!

We met grandson,Joshua, for lunch and we were happy to be able to spend time with him and grateful that he was here with us!
...... Something missing !
Every year I decorate the house. I decorate inside, outside and wherever there is a bare spot to hang another decoration. My two sonsTodd and Davin and their wives,Melinda and Amy ,are still in the Kansas City area but we are very lucky to have my daughter Tami, her husband Mark Both of their sons and their new wives here!
…….still there was something missing!

I stood in front of Walmart and handed out "comfort shawls" which I had crocheted. The shawls were beautiful! They were made with bright fun colors that made me smile to look at them. There was a nice fringe on the shawls which gave a calming glow. It was nice to be able to do that and see how much it meant to the people who took the shawls.

One day I made my way to our coffee group and I wore my Santa hat! We handed out cards to the staff and had a fun time both with our friends and the other people in Starbucks. Off to Quick Trip to get refueled. I was really trying to feel the Christmas spirit.
…...still there was something missing!

We met grandson,Joshua, for lunch and we were happy to be able to spend time with him and grateful that he was here with us!
…...still there was something missing!
My daughter, was on active duty in Washington D.C. helped lay wreaths on the graves at Arlington National Cemetery. I wished I could be there helping her to make a difference...but I am too old to be climbing up and down on a semi truck! lol! I am so proud of her and the job she is doing!
......but still there was something missing!
I played Christmas music, danced to " I want a hippopotamus for Christmas ", and spent a week trying to download Christmas ringtones! I said my prayers for all those who are sick, for those who are lost and those who have died and their families and prayed for peace!
....still there was something missing!
Well, then it hit me....what was missing are the children! The children with their dancing eyes, their impish smiles and their sense of wonder and innocence! Then my mind went, once again, to the children of Newtown and their families and their friends and all who are mourning the loss of the children and adults who have died during this holiday season and their loved ones.. My heart goes out to all who have lost children and loved ones this holiday season. Knowing that the children and especially the children of Newtown are what are missing this Christmas, I will never forget the 26 people and will honor them each Christmas to keep their spirits alive!
....now I know what was missing this Christmas!
God Bless!
R.I.P.
December 14, 2012 will be remembered…..

































